So I was diagnosed with PPMS 11 years ago and think I've had it since my teens. I'm currently 54. All my symptoms are fairly benign so as I got older I chalked things up to clumsiness, getting old, menopause! Only people close to me knew about my MS and when I could I could fake it, be normal. The past 5 years my symptoms decided they want to come out to play, most bothersome for me is shaking, cognitive skills, memory. So this is often difficult for me. Last August the last night of our summer vacation I suffered a massive heart attack. Symptoms were sweating, sick to stomach qnd speech was off as was my balance. Ended up having triple bypass and mitral valve replacement. Memory issues are often aside effects from open heart surgery. This was mid August last year. I haven't cried and continue to put on that mask of perfection. He'll I haven't even cried yet! 6 months later I'm exhausted have a hubby who doesn't want to hear me vent because he gets stressed that he can't fix me. I'm apparently into the psychological part of my healing and it's more painful than the physical recovery! Since my surgery my MS symptoms are all day every day! I feel overwhelmed qnd frustrated. So here I am veting to you all, thanx.