Today is my birthday. I am 43. Diagnosed almost 3 months ago. I was 29 when my neuro symptoms started. It took 14 years, 5 neurologist, 3 primary care providers and a ton of ER visits, a couple of hospitalizations, other specialists, labs, MRIs, MRAs, CTs, and alot of fight and perseverance to get here. I can't sleep tonight. My legs won't stop crawling. I was so fatigued last tonight on my way to the bathroom, with my husband's help, I don't know if I fell asleep for a second or passed out while walking. My husband caught me. I had my cane but am so weak right now. My coordination is well, not coordinating and I can't ealk alone right now. I hurt everywhere, especially my legs. I've been so dizzy that I want to vomit. This isn't where I pictured myself at 43. I am just really, really sad.