I used to tell people that I was retarded because I would forget things and I was a server and I didn't know what table my orders would go to or I just couldn't walk straight I didn't know what was wrong with me I figured that I did some thing to myself to cause these things to happen to me I remember one time I was at the store some years ago I didn't even know what MS was but I was feeling so stiff and I was like maybe I have a messages to say it little did I know years later that I would find out that I did it's crazy sometimes to think about it's a little bit disturbing about how my future is going to go I also used to say that I felt like that I had early onset dementia or something like that or that my brain was smaller than my head and then it was just like my brain was floating around in there