@Jane2364 

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Jane2364

Clear the dead wood..

Hello. I'm really sorry, this is a long post, and have tried my best to cut it down. Before MS: I am a survivor of an unhappy childhood and mentally and physically abusive marriage of nearly 20 years. I remarried 6 years ago and felt so positive about things. Then wham! 5 years ago, I was diagnosed with RRMS after what I now know was a relapse. I was 52 at the time and due to the lesions on my brain had apparently had had it for at least 5 years previously. MS never occurred to me as I'd an ankle injury due to a fall, and put down the "pavement surfing" down to tiredness from work and also a previous back problem. I struggle a with my mobility (use crutches) and controlling my bladder, but I manage ok. Husband has been supportive and has always told me, he'd rather be with me with MS, than not at all. My husband was in an unhappy marriage for 20 years with his ex having affair(s?). He had taken on 2 of her kids and had 2 of their own. I have never understood, why the kids seemed to be on her side, and have been nasty to him. Following my medical retirement from the NHS, we decided to put to the house on the market and find a bungalow and to move away from this area. Sold it quickly back in August 2021, and to cut a long story short, found a lovely bungalow only to be plagued with problems in the chain...sellers pulling out, mortgage difficulties, incompetent solicitors and delays. Still waiting for an exchange date. My father-in-law (92) had said he wanted to go to the Yorkshire Dales, so as I was familiar with the area, I organised a bungalow that sleeps 7. So we went in March with him, my sister-in-law and her partner. We were having a lovely time. One evening, my emotions got the better of me (the MS doesn't help), I had a episode where I burst into tears. They were all talking of how their childhood was so happy and about their family holidays, I had felt so sad that my own family had abandoned me. I had missed out a lot on love from a family and thought, at last, I had a family I could trust and be happy in. Wow, how wrong was I! My husband had been acting a little strangely after the holiday and had certainly been drinking more. One night, 2 months after the holiday, I asked him what was going on and he spilled the beans: After my emotional outburst on holiday, his sister (a Parkinsons nurse advisor) told him that he has "a lot to deal with" and that he should go and have "fun" with someone else. She was perfectly serious about this, infact the next morning, she'd reminded him of what she'd said the previous evening. I was shocked, upset, angry.. how could she! We had got on so well. What sort of nurse says this? I felt like reporting her to the NMC, but that would probably be construed as a family squabble. Instead, I emailed her and said how insulted I felt and I didn't want to have any sort of relationship with her. I have since blocked her. Husband blocked her too from his mobile. Since this, father-in-law had a fall (he's ok) and she said she couldn't contact him. Now his kids think he's disgusting for blocking her. As far as I know, they don't know what she said on holiday. To my mind his family are narcissists and change like to wind as to who's in favour. They've never accepted me and I have tried. His GP says "cut out the bad wood" and move. He's right. I've asked my husband to seek counselling, but says he's not ready. I am just praying that we get to exchange for the house move soon as I need to get away from this house, and the area, and start afresh elsewhere. It has been so stressful. Just like to thank AMD7L for her DM, just when I needed it. She encouraged me to post.
@Pumpkinbaby

Definitely cut out the bad wood. I cut out the whole of my Dad's side of the family, just my Dad at first but when noone in the whole family bothered to check if a 15 year old girl was OK after 2 years I decided I was done. Funny how they get all offended when they then need you. Fact is they're not supportive when you need them, or in this case, when your husband needs them. What kind of person thinks that is is supportive to suggest adultery? Specifically to someone who has been hurt by adultery in the past no less! If he's happy to cut them out good for him, unfortunately at this point it's not your choice to make, all you can do is be there for him when he encounters these situations and hope he does take the GPs advice. Hope you are OK x

@Jane2364

Thank you so much @Pumpkinbaby. Really appreciated your post. As the saying goes, "you can chose your friends, but not your family". My husband has been quite depressed about it, but has realised that his mental health is more important. Yes, I've always been there to support. Time and time again I see them being nasty to him and he just seems to forgive them... with some sort of guilt. My tongue is very sore from biting it. Its' a horrible thing to go through, I know first hand, but at the same time, good to know there are people out there who care and support. Thank you again.