Hey everyone, I am feeling really depressed at the moment, I am going through quite a debilitating relapse at the moment. My Fiancé is having to do a lot for me and I just constantly feel guilty. He wants to do these things for me, I need to accept that but I find myself apologising a lot. I have only been diagnosed with RRMS for 4 months and I am really struggling. My MS nurses said that my medication should help me forget I have MS, my symptoms should ease, but I feel worse than ever. I tried to go for a walk yesterday and I could only manage 15 minutes. I just feel so defeated.
I was diagnosed with RRMS almost 4 years ago but it has only been in the last 4 months that I have been really struggling with mental health and accepting the limitations that MS had put on my body and life. It is difficult to sit down when you are used to being on the go. In my mind I still think I am capable but my body tells me a different story. I used to walk for miles now a 10-15 minutes walk around the block is my limit. I am trying to find a way past this phase I’m going through. I also have a suprapubic catheter as a result of MS. I appreciate it is necessary but this gets to me too sometimes as I’m restricted in what I can wear - shorts, dresses and so on. Having a bag attached 24/7 can become tiresome. So sometimes between this and MS I feel 85 not 55. I don’t want to go down the route of self pity. I want to find a path forward. Find a way to leave the old life behind and look forward to the road ahead. Any tips out there would be appreciated.
Been through the same thing myself felt super low and felt a burden but realised I shouldn't feel that way you're doing your absolute best and nobody can fault that, stay strong dude you got this!