Well it has been a while since I have been around. Has been a rough go around here the last while. Things went from bad to worse so fast. Allow me too explain. First off back in Nov of last year I had a pretty bad relapse (or at least pretty bad for me anyway. Probably nothing compared to some of you though) then at the same time got a prostitus issue. Which of course made everything that much worse. On the bright side at least that was resolved in a short time. As far as the after affects of the relapse... Well not all of them have went away. Then shortly after and I mean within the week my with had to take a month and a half off work due to being completely stressed out over everything. Which put us once again in some serious financial issues. Which in turn stressed me out on top of everything else that was going on with me. I knew it wasn’t her fault I know what Call Centres are like. But in the end got through it. Well sort of. Still fighting to get bills back under control. But we are close. Then in the mix all that it was Christmas. The worry of how we were going to afford to give three kids the kind of Christmas they are used too. But again we managed to pull it off. Then the New Year rolled in and as far as my wife and I were concerned we were doing ok again and things financially started to get a bit better and things were running a bit more smoothly. Or so we thought. Come May my poor daughter started acting out really bad. Not sleeping at night, having trouble getting to sleep, her attitude changed, broke down completely at the smallest things, was complaining about an upset stomach all the time. It was like a switch was flipped and my baby girl was not the same anymore. So we called the Dr to get her checked out and make sure everything was ok. Cause it seemed to be a lactose issue to us. As her stomach get really bad shortly after dinner. So brought her in and at the time the Dr agreed with us and suggested to cut out all dairy in her diet for a week and see what happens. So off we go and do this. Needless to say didn’t seem to make a difference. If anything things just kept getting worse. Her attitude towards us and her brothers got worse. She has and still talks or should I say yells at all of us all the time. Still not able to sleep properly or get to sleep. Gets upset extremely easy. Saying things that an 8 year old should never say. A completely different little girl. So took her back to the Dr. They ran a bunch more tests and stuff. Ruled out anything physical wrong. By this point I am completely beside myself because I feel like I am loosing at this parenting thing fast. I don’t know what is wrong with my baby girl and don’t know how to fix it. So the Dr suggested to get ahold of our local Children’s Mental Health Organization. So we did that and had our first meeting with them just last week finally. After talking with this lady a lot of what she has said so far matches up with what we have been seeing. My poor little girl is stressed out over everything that is and has been going on and don’t know how to process it properly. We are now at the end of July and well I don’t even know anymore. I feel like I am walking or rather stumbling from one shit storm to the next. Always waiting on that next shoe to drop. Sorry for anyone who has mad it this far. It isn’t very interesting. I just had to put it down on paper so to say. Not looking for an sympathy or empathy. It is what it is. Just the cards I have been dealt. Can only play with what I have. They (whoever they are that is) say the good Lord never gives you more then you can handle. Well personally I think I have to be getting maxed out!!!! Can someone else be it for a little while please. I need a break. Once again sorry for the blabbering on and on about my issues. I know we all have them and wish that we didn’t on a regular basis. I am just ranting a bit. Anyway hope all that read this through are having a good day on which ever particular day you read this. Wishing you all prosperity and good fortune. And always remember: Happiness can always be found. Even in the darkest of times. If one only remembers to turn on the light. Good day to you all.