Greif Anyone?
I have been struggling with grieving the parts of myself that this illness is taking from me. I've only been struggling most with my cognitive changes. I get angry from apologizing for messing up sentences both written and verbally. My spelling not so hot. I feel like my brain has sludge in it. I feel like an alien is working on taking control. My double vision is my right eye, my hearing loss and unrelenting tinnitus - I greaves who I used to be, I thought (before this) that the only control I have is over myself and now, after losing my ability to work, my ability to read a book, and my art - gone. Who is this new me that I am miserable physically and mentally - the pain, the jerking movements, wobbing shakes throughout my body. I grieve the woman I was.
What helped you or has anyone dealt with this?
Hi I don't know when you was diagnosed but it takes time to adjust to the illness mainly because it's changing all time,I was diagnosed nearly 11 years ago and it's been hard lately because I'm in so much pain I saw a Nurse at the pain clinic who recommended an app insight timer which has lots of free live talks, meditation and mindfulness classes it's made me think differently I use it everyday it sounds over the top but it's changed my life because now I'm not angry or stressed all the time it's made me realize I was so stressed before which is so bad for MS and now I do yoga everyday which has made a big difference to my mobility now I plan my day out I try to do something I enjoy everyday it is hard I try not to look back how my life was before because it makes me sad I try to think now I have time to paint and look at things I was always rushing around before,try not look backwards try to live for now, I know it's hard hope you find something which helps
I hate to offer up a cliche, but it is true: Time will Heal your grief. In the meantime, have you though of trying Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction, which is a form of meditation and which has been scientifically proven to reduce pain and anxiety?