After a few years of meeting with various Drs, nurses and neurologists I have come to the realisation that 80% don't care and the other 20% are glad it's you. After much meditation and new spiritual understanding I think I have the answer. It is in fact lots and lots of money, It won't buy you happiness but fuck it will come damn close, I'm happy to cry in Ferrari!!! For anyone out there that's skint like me, Drugs is next best thing really. (Mindfulness and yoga do work though yeh I am taking the piss )