@keepupthefight 

Last reply

keepupthefight

Feeling like no 2

I haven’t posted for a while. After quite a long time out of employment, I was able to find a new job. But it was a contract and it came to an end. I want a permanent role but with several gaps in my CV(resume) I’m finding that potential employers are screening me out and even when I have made interviews they scrutinise these gaps. I have avoided being open about my MS as it’s one personal and don’t feel I should be forced into discussing it. But I guess when I do try to explain these gaps it might seem flakey than the actual truth. Anyway, I’ve been pushing as much as I can, and job hunting can be the worst (at the best of to times), and I feel like I’m becoming depressed and isolated. I have found myself getting lost in my thoughts( mainly negative) and it’s just a viscous circle. I’m still trying to keep a healthy diet and perhaps part of my low mood may be attributed to the fact I’ve not been able to exercise much due to a shoulder injury... Well, that’s the pity party over. Im sorry, but I don’t have many outlets and I know no one can see ( the unseen) pain that MS can sometimes have. I also find that my sadness ( in terms of crying) is so much greater than what I normally feel. I think there’s been posts before that MS can cause crying etc. It’s kind of strange. As I am in a low mood, feel like crap and yet I’m even like hold on, get a grip... My bad... but thanks for listening
@Stumbler

@keepupthefight , it's good to get your thoughts written down (even if it's on a computer screen/Smartphone/tablet!). This helps to absolve you of the feelings. Plus, a problem shared is a problem solved, which is why we're all here, to support one another.

@Elizbella

You'll get there! I managed to get a permanent job counting my lucky stars and struggle with fatigue but once you find the balance that works stick with it. I had a two year gap in my CV but now I'm in a very good position thanks to perseverence