Everyday I know I’m ill; I take a dozen prescription medication, I have chronic pain, I get bouts of dizziness, and more… But somehow, you sort of get used to it. It becomes your new normal, new baseline. It’s depressing to think that, but you do learn to function in this new “normal”. But every time I go for my Ocrevus infusion, I get hit in the face with the reality that I am ill, all over again. I look around at other people in the chairs, look at my IV, listen to the sound of the pump, and it is undeniable that I am not healthy. It’s a hard pill to swallow….. it gets me every time. I get quite depressed before and during my infusion. Organising all the logistics of the infusion and recovery time. Those are sobering moments for me.. Does anyone else feel completely hit in the face with their diagnosis when it comes near or during treatment? How do you deal with it?