Flashbacks

At times at random I will get a rush of flashbacks where I’ll remember things that happened in the hospital that I had forgotten and start to cry out of frustration. I will also recall the judgment and all the drama I just don’t want to deal with anymore between family members. I’m becoming more bitter when I’m trying not to be because of all the good they have done. Did anyone else experience too many hands in the pot during their first flare?