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Hello Shift.MSers.
I was diagnosed with early PPMS (male, 28) in july, 4 months after breaking up with someone I still love. The break up was slow, painful, emotionally violent.
Today I went for a drink with this person, mostly to share my MS diagnosis and my treatment plan with a newly approved drug for my condition.
The response to the MS news was.... normal. Even though i was free to speak about it, not knowing anything about the disease leaves the recipient not knowing what this really means.
Besides MS, I had to listen to how great life has been this past year, all the people he’s met and how fulfilling life has become after ‘going out of the closet’. Meanwhile, I was diagnosed with a chronic illness, suffering from rampant paranoia, with little-to-no social life (most of my friends are gone from the little town I live in), staled in the maturation of my homosexuality and with tons of work responsabilities to asume.
I can fight MS, and I’ve made an effort to distance myself from a difficult relationship, but i feel like I can’t stand my life the last 3-4 years.
I always thought relocating abroad would be an opportunity to start all over, but I am now scared to do that alone because of my MS. I feel it’s my only hope though...
Sorry but I needed to express my anguish...
I feel drained.....,
@fxms You had a "slow, painful, emotionally violent" break up. Then you went for a drink with them eight months later & expected support & understanding??? I am not an expert yet it appears to me that you need to move on with your life. Work on dealing with the MS challenges first... While staying far, far away from your past.