Hi Alice and welcome, life's a bitch and then you die is very true but one thing we have learnt to do on this site is find anything we CAN do not worry about the things we can't do, you have just had a big shock even if you suspected, you've had a crap year but things can only get better as the song says. I lost my mobility car, not my driving license but the results are the same for both of us, I'm 62 and have had the beast for 24 years, still here, still fighting, so keep posting, there's no such thing as a silly question with ms, so ask all you want, rant if you want, cry, celebrate, whatever you want, we don't judge and there's nothing you can do or say that will surprise us, we've done and said it all before, you are not the first😍

Hello @alicek13, I do feel for you. I am about a year on down the line from you. One year ago, I was feeling better and recovering from my initial elapse. But now, one year on, I can look back and see that I hadn’t recovered properly, phycially yes but not mentally and emotionally. I can see now that coming to terms with diagnosis and stuff took about a year to recover. Now I’m in my second year and I am in ‘rebuld’ mode, sorting my life out, getting fitter, making plans. Even though we might have love and support around us, it’s fair to say that no one can fully understand what we go through, how every day can seem like a battle. My first big episode has left me with some permanent annoying symptoms, mainly sensory, so not so bad. At least I now know what my new normal feels like, that seemed like a long climb to discover. Hey ho. Stick at it, really, really look after yourself and do whatever you need to do to get through this rough time. You. Will. Be. OK. Lots of love xx