Fatigue
I'm having a REALLY hard time with my RRMS causing severe fatigue. I see 100yds as a demise to any, and ALL motivation I can hope to have. I know I'm not the only one but it seems, like, lately I'm alone. So much has been stripped, already, from me that I dread the embarrassment of peoples perception of me struggling to take that many steps. My depression, do to others perceptions, is causing me to not be myself around my family, the woman I've loved for the last 20 years, and friends who just simply want to have a good time. I don't know fully what kind of forum this is but if this is a place where I can let out my cry for help then I hope I can be answered. I knew having MS would affect me but what it has done for me is stripped, what I perceive to be, my manhood so much that I don't think I could ever return to my self. I have more depressed and hard days on myself now then I ever did in the first 35 years of life. Is this a common effect of MS?
Hi @jeffreyweeks, yep, you call it 'stripped', I call it 'reduced'. I don't know how old you are, but for me, after the initial flurry around diagnosis, processing and recovery, only now three years later has it started to sink in that this is a one way journey. No, it's not nice. But you can still see quality in unexpected places. I don't look too far into the future. I mean, none of us can know how life will turn out, with or without ms, right? I can't change anything, but I like to be in control of those things that I can control. I make myself do exercise, which is a pain! I rest up, but make sure I do something really constructive every day. I don't entertain trivial nonsense. I write my thoughts down. I make sure I keep up to date with ms research. This forum is great, for sounding off, reaching out, asking advice, answering posts. Most importantly, to help you see that you're not alone x
@jefferyweeks- I totally relate, and I’m sorry for your battle!😢 First the doctor put me on Citalaphram, for depression. Then muscle relaxers and Modafinil for fatigue. As I adjusted to the “ new” me, I opened up more. I won’t patronize you, friend. But you need your other half and your friends. They love you for you, and they’ll understand. Well, as much as they can. Please be patient with yourself, mental health is half the battle. Go to doctor and tell them, others have been there. You’re normal, and still the strong man you were. We are not made/ capable to do this alone. Others need you, and appreciate you. Chao, be well and stay in touch!