I've had an...interesting life up until this point, one that can be dissected into two separate parts, the time before I went to university, my childhood and my time in the ten years since. Oh and my time since my diagnosis, so really that's three parts. The time before I went off to uni was one of, unpredictability, self doubt and unfulfilled potential and this time has left me with certain 'mental scars' and undoubtedly these have bled into my time since then. I have to wonder, how much of my current physical ability, or disability, is in my head? There are things I know I can do, if I think about them logically, yet when I come to do them I convince myself beforehand I can't. For example, I know I have to get to destination X but my brain is convinced I won't be able to reach X without a lot of difficulty, which logically is simply not true. So just how much of my disability is in my head, my own self doubt and how much is actually affecting me? This post is more just a thinking point than anything else, but it was certainly something I needed to 'verbalize' for other peoples digestion.