Hey fellow MSer, take a deep breath. It's not your fault or your family's fault that you have MS. There isn't conclusive data on why MS happens or what causes it however we know what it is doing. Our immune system is attacking our brain. You are probably depressed, very common with us and going through the 5 stages of grief again common. You need to accept you have MS and manage it. You are strong and no MS didn't make you strong, you already were. 🤗😊 sending you love, take care

As @Yorete mentioned, have a look at the grief model and use it as a tool to help you understand your big feelings. This journey is both physical and emotional and it’s not easy. Perhaps your family did contribute to your inability to process these emotions but over time you will also see that they too did not have to tools to cope with their own emotions and did the best they could with their own limitations. It’s a hard pill to swallow and I think many of us have to deal with that. It won’t happen overnight, it’s gradual, it’s hurtful and you will have ups and downs throughout the process and will continue for the remainder of your life. You have to ask yourself if it’s worth the suffering to hold on to the anger, resentment, pain and blame or to focus on healing your mind, body and soul for your own well being. Because now and for the rest of your life, your attention needs to go mostly to yourself. Show yourself kindness, patience and lots of compassion. Gentle hugs fellow Torontonian.