So today I let myself down. My yearly MRI was booked for 7.10am this morning. Anyone who has read my previous posts on here will know I’m extremely claustrophobic last year I had Iv sedation and was fine this year I wanted to do it with tablets. My GP was against giving me diazepam and it was a struggle to get him to prescribe it for me he wanted me to have a total of 4mg (2 x 2mg) when I explained my extreme claustrophobia he relented and gave me 2 x 5mg but made it clear he felt I should try to cope with 5mg so I rocked up this morning took 5 mg which initially relaxed me but the minute they put me into the scanner I freaked out. I tried twice to let him start the scan but ended up screaming to get out. I’m so disappointed in myself I’ve taken two months working myself up to this barely sleeping stressing out thinking about it and I had hoped to have finally put it behind me after today but it just wasn’t to be. My family have been brilliant all through today totally understanding couldn’t have asked for better support but I just feel so down. Just wanted to share this with people who truly understand what I’m going through. Sorry for myself rant over x