Update from Neuro Appointment.
I had my appointment on the 25th Feb which i'd waited nearly 3 months for.
He doesn't want to do any further tests.
I told him again about my leg/back pain, again he tells me it's sciatica.
I told him i'm still struggling with my speech & handwriting, i asked if there is still time for this to improve and he said things can take years to improve & keep on improving.
I told him i've still got the constant tinnitus but he's not bothered about that.
Told him that i see sort of dark shadows across my right eye and sometime when i look at writing on a piece of paper that i sometimes i see the top of the letters repeated again then it goes away, he's not bothered about that.
Said that it could be floaters that i'm seeing or because i'm constantly anxious pupils can dilate & cause that.
He said i've lost alot of confidence etc which i know i have.
He said if & when i start to think awful thoughts for me to think of the nicest thing i can!!!
I said my VEPS were'nt normal were they, he said it doesnt matter about them, the most important thing is that my spinal fluid was clear.
Straight after the appointment i was happy & it felt like a huger relief that there's still some tiny bit of hope that i may not develop ms, but it's gone now, i'm on a downer.
Why didn't he want another mri? I mean if he saw 1 more lesion that would have been a diagnosis.
He seems quite happy with me.
He didn't check anything like my eyes/reflexes etc.
I want to be happy but it's tough.
I get the feeling that some of what he said it true, but some of it is bullsh**!!!

& bearing in mind, my spinal fluid was clear 16 months ago!!! Could it still be now!!! I wonder...
I can understand your frustration. The lumbar puncture is used, when an MRI is inconclusive and at that time, it didn't associate your lesions with MS. I believe we can get lesions on the brain just through living, although possibly it could have been viral damage, which is where it all started for you. To a certain extent, your neuro is right. If you keep on expecting symptoms, your brain will help it become a self-fulfilling prophecy. Does the neuro want to see you again or is that it? Anyway, how's work going for you now, has it improved since you started back? Even though it doesn't appear to be MS for you, you can still be part of our club here. :) Just try and be positive and see if you can get your life back on track.