relationships

Hello everyone. I was diagnosed with MS about 8 months ago. Since then my relationship with my boyfriend has been going down the toilet (we have been together for almost 2 years). We always fight over stupid reasons, I end up feeling sad or angry and eventually cry my eyes out. My self esteem is nowhere to be seen and somehow he has made me believe that nobody will ever get involved with me seriously because i am ill. He actually pointed out how people with MS have a hard time finding significant others. He apologized after that but I cant help but feel disappointed in him and in my life. After that he broke up with me and one of the reasons was that he wasnt sure he could stand by me and be of help and because he didnt want me to "spend my good years on him" and by good he meant "disabillity-free". He apologized after that and with a lot of persuasion from him i took him back but it was never the same. I get jealous a lot and i feel that every other woman is better than me in every possible way just because they dont have MS. Anyway, long story short i dont know what i am doing wrong in this relationship and i dont know what to do to change things. I am desperately trying to make things work but i dont know if it is because i still love my boyfriend or because i am terrified of being alone. I dont know what to do.. Thank you for taking the time to read my rant, i hope y'all are doing amazing :)
@Stumbler

Hi @constantine_rosalie . You need to start loving yourself, before you can expect someone to start loving you. You are young and obviously desirable. OK, you have MS, but this is now being managed by medication. Everyone has a certain amount of baggage, yours is called MS. You now know that you need to look after your health. The future is unpredictable for everyone, so you are no different. So, pump that self-esteem back up and show him the young lady that he know pre-diagnosis. She's still there.

@EdmontonAlberta

@constantine_rosalie I always categorize people as "substance" or "fluff". Substance will be by your side through thick & thin; fluff wanders off when challenges appear. 90% of people are fluff - they are there for the fun stuff while it benefits them! The key in life is to find the 1% who you want to share your valuable time on this planet; it actually is that simple. I have been told many times that I am always judging people; they say that as if it is a negative thing. However, this is a talent as far as I am concerned. Imagine my life 10 years down the road ; or in your case, 30 years from now. Will this person make you happy as you journey through life? Will they stand by you when things get rough? There are two sides to the coin; will you do the same for them? Seven billion people on Planet Earth; you only need the top 10 to have an enjoyable life...