So this is my first time posting here, MS is such a life altering disease. It’s difficult to do anything, can’t walk, can’t run,can’t drive. Before MS I was so active, played with my kid now I can’t, I kayaked, hiked, hung my hammock all the time. Super outdoor type of guy. Now I just lay in my bed and watch television all the time, I weigh more than I have ever, my wife left me over 2 years ago and divorced me. It’s been a wild ass ride to say the least. I’m depressed and lonely as hell. I contemplate suicide all the time I just want to be normal again and be able to enjoy life without being sad and sick and having headaches and hurting 24/7. It’s ridiculous. I’m not okay. I have nothing anymore no way to work nothing and no one around me seems to care. Treatments don’t work. I’m in a relapse as I type this, double vision, headache’s and MS hugs Constantly something. All I do is cry for hours and get a stuffy nose, I just want my life back knowing I’ll never get the old me back. I’m sure some folks will say it’s just life of having Multiple Sclerosis. I just want something different and can’t for the life of me go and get it. It’s frustrating as heck. This MS crap has made everything so difficult. Anyone else feel this way?