I've been miserable for many years. Somedays I just hurt all over, every inch of my body. I have degenerative disc disease, chronic low platelets, high blood pressure, benign positional vertigo, I have my neck fused, my left hip replaced and my lower back fused. I need both knees replaced ASAP, and my right hip will be ready to be replaced anytime. Im 59 now and I have been suffering with one thing or another since 2002. In the last 2 years I have been very unstable on my feet, often staggering around like I am drunk. I have no balance, no strength. There is a disconnect between my brain and my feet. If i dont watch my feet while walking and constantly think about each step and my footing, I will get caught up in my own feet and sometimes fall. I have had some really hard falls in the last 2 years. The vision in my left eye dropped from 20/40 to 20/200 in less than a year. Both my feet are numb. They and my hands tingle all the time. I often stub my left foot on the ground while walking. I typically almost fall nearly every day. Sometimes I forget how to swallow and choke on my food. I was once a hearlt/sunshine worshipper. I cannot stand either of them now. I used to feel joy and recharged while in the sun, but now I feel like it drains me of all my energy and it hurts my skin. My legs feel like they weigh 500# each and its difficult to breath. I've had mri's 6 months apart, each showing multiple lesions in my white matter. My fatigue and depression are through the roof. I have painful leg cramps every night and the first thing every morning. I have been very dizzy a lot lately. I have tested negative for Rheumatoid Arthritis, Lupus, Lyme disease and a handful of other autoimmune diseases. Both mri's had notes from 2 different radiologists saying my lesions look like MS. My doctor is an MS specialist at an MS specialty clinic out of Cleveland Clinic. She also has a husband with MS. I would expect her to know her stuff. She is reluctant to diagnose me. She wont say its NOT MS, but she wo t say it is. Ok, you read this far, thank you. What should I do now?