I’ve had RRMS since 2014. I’ve never had an issue until 2 years ago. I caught pneumonia and fell in the shower and my health started to rapidly decline. Last January I lost my job in international manufacturing due to the president not understanding what a tariff is and who pays it. My company was forced to restructure and it has been a nightmare ever since. My health continues to decline. I have a 2 year old daughter and a 7 year old daughter. The last year raising them has become extremely difficult. I have lost the ability to use my dominant right side and am doing what I can to mask the ability. I’m losing my kids and my wife. It has been the most difficult time in my life. I just want to be back to my old self. I used to cook , help clean up, and always repaired my home. My patience is thin and I’m constantly lashing out at my family especially my wife. Today probably has been one of the worst days. I actually contemplated committing suicide. I just don’t see anything changing. It’s like I’ve had a stroke and I will never recover. I go to PT, take my meds , and eat right without eating inflammatory food as best I can. I’m just lost. Feel like if I was gone my wife could do so much better without me holding her down. She’s the epitome of a catch and I’m destroying her slowly. I’m writing this just in case I do come to my demise, I tried to say something. If anyone out there feels like me do you have any suggestions? I just don’t see myself getting back to the old me and I’m just ready to give up.