My kids don’t deserve this.

I lived across three states Missouri Arkansas and Illinois when I was younger and I hate Having to be sick to the extent I can’t even get out of bed. They should be out there like me when I was younger not deliberately buying their properties as close as possible to mine is simply because they are worried and I feel like crap for being the source for that kind of anxiety in their lives oh my how do I deal with this I hate the looks on Paul and Matt’s faces on my sick days😖😖