UK heat wave
Since the UK heat wave started, my brain has been rotting. These last few weeks I do the bare minimum and just can’t seem to function properly throughout the rest of the day. Never in the mood to do anything. Left tasks undone and just been feeling so guilty because I’ve not been doing anything around the house (plus the back pain is not helping). I just feel like a useless piece of shit. My partner is good as there haven’t forced me to do anything I don’t wants to/can’t. I go to work and that just leaves me so exhausted. Can’t be bothered to cook, some days I can’t even be bothered to eat. I dunno…must really sucks right now.
If you think you’re not doing anything, you’re mistaken. You’re already doing more than half of healthy people. Don’t forget that the thinking process and simply staying awake consume energy just like running does — the difference is that the calories are spent not by your muscles, but by your brain. You won’t lose weight from this or gain muscle mass, of course, but it is still work. And for a person with a central nervous system condition, it’s double the work, because the brain has to find alternative pathways around the affected areas. So rest, do as little as possible, and remember: you exist here and now, you think and you feel — that is also work, so don’t feel guilty about anything. And to your partner — my sincere thanks for understanding and support. You deserve it. Sending you a strong hug and cooling rays of kindness ❤️