Being Honest
I have a real problem sharing what is really going on with everyone. My go-to answers are “great” or “fine” anytime anyone asks how I am. It is a particular problem now that I am doing it with my doctor. I try to go in with a written list of things I want to talk about, but I still end up downplaying them, or feeling guilty about taking up so much time and stopping midway through. This seems ridiculous, as I am 50 years old and know I need to be telling my doctors the truth (and others around me) to get proper support, but I just can’t seem to get past it. Does anyone else do this, and does anyone have a suggestion of ways to quit without feeling like a complainer?
I don’t tell many people what is going on with me. Just a few that I trust. My neurologist has a portal that I can type up everything then send it to them. They will set up the appointment and then ask more details since they know what is going on. Maybe if your neurologist offers that it would work for you. I get it. I could be on fire and would tell people I am fine.
I feel that way sometimes too. I feel it’s too much to explain sometimes that saying I’m fine or okay just makes it easy. I also feel that some ppl have it worse than me, so I try not to complain even though I’m struggling internally.