Feel like I’ve been knocked back
Hi everyone x
How do you handle not feeling supported mentally, emotionally or physically?
I live on the other side of the Atlantic from my family. They don’t visit.
I’ve made peace with it. If they ever say it I’m like whatever.
My mother never really took my MS stuff seriously. But she met a woman ironically who is 51, has RRMS, walks with a cane so she tells me when she spoke to me how hard it is for her and that her Ms is bad. And they real pain
I just say I pray for her.
Then she proceeded to tell me young people don’t need walking aids. I responded if you don’t have Ms you don’t get an opinion.
Once she also said if I take Ocrevus then all my symptoms and pain should have went smh.
This is my mother who also never took any of my pain seriously. Told me to get over it. It happens to everyone.
We had a bad argument this past weekend.
For no reason.
She really just wanted to dig up old skeletons.
And when she wasn’t getting the reaction she wanted- she yelled that I was making her BP high and hung up.
I messaged her sorry and that it was the end of that discussion and I’m done.
I cannot be the only one making an effort. I raised my younger brother for my parents.
I’ve handled myself since I was a child.
I’ve accepted ridicule, hypocrisy, stereotypes, and just feeling unloved.
And that’s why I believe I took this MS so badly. Because where this stupid culture gave me the shit stick all my life and I thought I was done with being put down- here comes another thing.
I could be drowning and it would still be my fault.
Ironically, it that’s a real story too my childhood.
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You can’t put energy on things or people that won’t be useful to you. You need peace to be able to handle this health issues. So just be cordial to her when she is talking because you can’t be disrespectful. But don’t concentrate your energy there. And meditate.