I have to be honest, I’m feeling like that now. Was given the opportunity to apply for a senior role where I am but with the memory issues and concerns about stress I’ve turned it down. I felt worried I wouldn’t be able to cope and I’d let me colleagues down (they currently don’t know but i have made a decision to tell them early next year if my latest results are positive) Prior to diagnosis and issues I would have jumped at the chance. I’ve always been very focused in progressing in my field, I’m now finding myself in a situation where I don’t know if stress will be a possible factor in relapse. I started a DMT very quickly after diagnosis and I’ve gone from relapsing every 3-4 months to seemingly being ok for 6 months now. I’ve just had my bloods taken to confirm JCV status and a yearly MRI booked for December so I’m hoping they are all positive. I think my biggest fear is the massive unknown of what this all means for me and my partner. As it’s been less than a year since diagnosis I’m still likely processing things and working things out but it’s really made me think about things I’d not really considered prior to all this happening. Like you’ve said, I don’t feel like my life is horrible, I’ve been very fortunate that I’ve made what feels to be a very good recovery from the issues I’ve had. I still feel like it has affected me though and there are some minor lingering issues.

@I_am_Tom ....I've been getting so much blood work done every time I see a medical physician.... I know I need to get a normal Doctor physician.... I have one physician who is a Neurologist that's been working with me since the beginning of all this... I'm seeing a knewish medical physician in December. She is a a physician who is hard to deal with because she has nothing knew to say ...with me