Can't take much more
Really struggling right now 😔 been hit hard with a relapse with extreme symptoms that hasnt stopped battering me since february. I can't do anything I once did that were crucial to my mental and physical health. Cyclist that can't ride, can't use my peloton, walking is just unbearable, constant pain from extreme intercostal spasms, new lesions on MRI, treatment decisions, work impacted, family and partner all impacted. Managed to hold it together for a few months but now the weight of all of this has just become unbearable and too much, the stength i had to stay positive is dying and i just cant seem to pull myself out of the depression anymore. Totally and utterly exhausted. Stress on top of stress on top if stress with absolutely no respite, just can't go on like this
Have you seemed mental health treatment? I have struggled with depression for most of my life. I was able to fight through it for a very long time. About the time of my symptoms starting I chose to seek out mental health treatment and it helped a lot. I am currently off my meds and I am an emotional Rollercoaster. But working to get back on them. Also do what you can to reduce the stress level. Stress can play a big role in relapse.
@Maggie2012 It is on my to-do list, I think I can get it privately through a work scheme. I was managing quite well for a while but wasn't expecting such a long wait for my scans, appointments and starting a new DMT, optimistically thought everything would be in motion by now but it's all been so drawn out which has allowed time for the depression to manifest and escalate... will definitely seek out some sort of mental health therapy asap. I just really needed to vent 😔