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I just saw a distressing YouTube video of someone who had Ms for over 40 years. And had a wife of the same age. The difference was immeserivable. He had symptoms like mine numbness. And now is on a wheelchair. He could barely talk and couldn’t get a sentence out. I’m really scared again. I don’t want this. I don’t. I know the medication isn’t the same, but I’m heading down the same road of disability especially because I’m 18. If I had it later on, then less lesions would come but nope I showed my first signs as a child. I’m screwed so badly isn’t not even funny.