So this year, I am about 18 years sober from all hard drugs, pills, powders smokables (not counting pot lol), all the all the hard stuff. Occasionally I’ll have a couple beers with my dad during pool leagues but always accompanied with food and a soda in between. I will say this since all of the pain over the last 5-7 years when the Ms started working it way in. Has been the hardest struggle to stay clean and mostly sober. This year I plan to do something special maybe get my big tattoo I’ve wanted. Just wondering if I’m the only one that struggles inside occasionally with the though of just melting it all away like I did as a kid with my feelings.