Ive been on the sunbed this morning the first time since being diagnosed in may. I loved it. I felt calm, relaxed, happy. I drifted off to sleep.I love the sunbeds, they are my happy place and ive been really nervous about giving them up. Im going to take it slowly and start maybe once a week slower if need be. But I cannot be a pale girly, and I love my bed too much for fake tan. It just makes me feel normal. Keep everything crossed for me. I just want to feel normal for 12 mins a week.