I don't know why I've been in my head a lot especially today. It's like I will never be able to live on my own because disability don't pay you enough and I got disabled at an early age so I never worked enough to have enough money to be able to live on my own I don't ever want to live in a rooming house I don't ever want to go to a old folks home because I'm not old yet but that's honestly the reality that I'm facing for the rest of my life don't get me wrong I love you I love my family but I don't want to feel like I'm a burden on anybody and I don't know why I'm beating myself up but I don't know I'm just not happy