just need to get this off my chest because it’s hit me like a train today. I had to stop working a few years ago. I volunteer when I can but I’ve realised I don’t actually have any friends anymore. The people I volunteer with are lovely, but they’re mostly a lot older than me, so we’re just not really on the same wavelength outside of volunteering. Recently I started talking to someone online. It started off as something completely different, but we ended up talking for hours about life, family and just random rubbish. It became the best part of my day.l, she made me smile and laugh and feel human again. Now it’s coming to an end and I’ve been in tears all morning. The strange thing is I don’t think it’s actually her I’m grieving, it’s the connection. I honestly can’t remember the last time someone showed a genuine interest in me. Meeting new people the same way is not an option. It’s also made me realise how emotionally lonely I’ve become with my GF, I don’t feel listened to, she never asks about my day, and I don’t really feel seen anymore, I’m truly miserable, but I’m finding some help for that I hope! It’s so sad as I can’t understand how I’ve turned into this, I’m not looking for people to tell me to leave my partner or talking to someone else was wrong (I get it) but it’s the realisation of the loneliness that I must have felt for years that’s the worst, I understand why I feel like this and I can analyse it all day long. I just can’t see a way out of it. Has anyone else had something happen that suddenly made them realise just how lonely they’d become? If so, how did you get through it? I’m no good I. Physical situations, my energy is just too low but I’m really good at chatting online!