I feel like my life is over :( being on SSI is hard. I need to get them Cremated but that’s $150 and new babies are $650 ea ughh I hate my life. They were my everything Put in ChatGPT Version 1 – Emotional & Reflective I was not made to go through this kind of pain. I know family pets pass on, but they were never “just pets.” They were my babies. They took care of me long before we even knew what was happening with my health. Through countless sick days, they gave me a reason to get up and move, because they needed me too. Lucky would press her nose to mine and breathe with me, like she knew exactly how to calm my storms. Pebbles was me in bird form, full of personality and attitude. I never trained them with treats, only love, cheers, and kisses. Pebbles was even potty trained, except when she was mad. Then she would fly straight to my shoulder just to prove her point. They danced with me, laughed like me, and talked with such personality it felt like conversations with little feathered people. Our music ranged from Macy Gray to Ozzy with a touch of Metallica. Even some They never even used typical bird sounds. They used our sounds. Bedtime was always a playful battle. They would pretend to cooperate, then laugh and fly off at the last second like mischievous toddlers. Then they would talk softly until they fell asleep. They kept me grounded when my world felt uncertain. Now the silence feels overwhelming. I still talk to them, out of habit and love. I know people say the pain fades. I don’t believe it fades, but I hope it becomes something I can carry. I still have so much love to give. Living with Primarily Progressive Multiple Sclerosis is frightening, but they made it manageable. I need that kind of light in my life again. I cannot even post on my whole facebook without some stalker I have making fun of me lossing them. #PebblesandLucky were my lifeline. If you could help at all please know it would get spent right. I am sorry, mommy loves you two https://gofund.me/cd45857d5