Afraid of getting better
Anyone with RRMS get nervous when they are doing well. When I’m in the remitting phase of the disease and feel like I am functioning well… I start to get nervous about when it will end or how soon the relapse will come. I know it’s silly and I should just be happy I’m doing well, but the name of my disease says it all.
This disease really forces you to face the unknown. Everyone has to deal with it to some extent but with a chronic, unpredictable disease everything feels more critical. In the new year I want to focus more on what I can do to enjoy the present instead of fretting about the future if that makes sense.
I know what you mean and I think being on this group can make me wonder more about the future when I read about everyone’s symptoms and relapses. But I definitely just try and face what’s infront of me today. It’s easier said than done but I don’t think too far ahead. Most of the time it works for me.