DOES THIS POEM CONNECT WITH HOW YOU FEEL?
I always try to look for the positives when it comes to MS, but occasionally I slip into a dark place, like when I wrote this poem that was originally published on the MS Society website. I was worried about my steady deterioration and thought I may be progressing from RRMS to Secondary (my neuro disagrees). Whatever, I felt better for having written it. Maybe it’ll help you too.
Secondary Thoughts
Are you bored of me?
‘Cause I’m bored of you
Who would I be now?
If born fresh and new
Lived with you too long
Lost me in the mist
Not one ailment alone
You gave me a list
Every year you push me
Closer to the wheels
When thoughts turn to chairs
My whole world it reels
The drama of relapse
Replaced by decay
Lack of drama for sure
Still, counting the days
Inadequate name
For the path laid out
Such secondary thoughts
For such fears and doubts
Roll over and cry
No longer my style
I’ll keep pushing hard
And walking that mile
Scars found in the brain
But not on the mind
Search for a new fight
A fight you may find
A battle we wage
We’ll come through the test
Staying the full course
Saying balls to MS
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