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Heya, Don't know if i have a question, statement or observation. Or all of the above. During these last 2 years, things really took a turn for the worse, ms wise. And subsequently, psychologically as well. No major relapses, but clearly a steady decline. And new meds, which cause side-effects that are pretty anoying, at best. Last week i had my 6-monthly checkup. It seems like my neuro and ms-nurse are a bit, how do i explain, blasé? Everything i tell them, even new symptoms, arn't immediately dismissed, but they react more in a- "well, that's just how its going to be from now on" -manner. It feels like there was some kind of meeting or memo i missed, apparently. My reallity from now on. Like it's part of the ms-deal. But suddenly, in the mean time, i'm stuck with wormlike sensations in my leggs, as well that they wobble and and shut down whilst crossing a street. Neuropathy that's unbearable sometimes. A level of fatigue and sleepyness that's paralizing. And during those idiotic warm days (39°c, mind you, in the netherlands!),i fell down in the hallway and couldn't move, speak, swallow or even cry. That's just a little selection. Now, i knów they cant really dó a lot, but i, against my better judgment, feel soooo angry! Powerless! Mad! Do i expect compassion or something? Or demand a sollution? I feel empty. Sooo...This is it then? I noticed a lot of questionmarks in my ranting. Maybe it's just that. Rant a little. Stupid me. Stupid ms-BS. Gross, disgusting joke of a desease. yuck 😠😤 Thoughts?