I’ve just been diagnosed with RRMS and even though I have strongly suspected I had MS for quite a while I’ve been surprised at the impact of seeing it in black and white. It’s overwhelming in many ways. I’m 56 so I guess I’m lucky as I’ve lived a lot of my life without the diagnosis. I can only
Imagine how devastating it must feel at 18. Just not fair.
The only advice I can offer is try to restrict how much / how often you think about it or google it if possible. Maybe give yourself time off at weekends or every evening after 6 or something? Otherwise it can take over too much of your life.