So I had been doing really well recently, but 6 weeks ago someone said something that literally broke me. A girl at work (who suffers with anxiety) was talking about her own trouble then came out with “I look at you and I wonder how you get up in the morning” It was not too bad at the time but she got inside my head and I ended up having a complete emotional meltdown and cut my hair off. In that moment I just hated myself and the thought that this is what everyone was thinking got to me. I have been a bit fragile and tearful since. But it has just occurred to me people are always going to ignorant to what people with MS go through. She has no idea what goes on with me, just cause I choose to not suffer out loud in public doesn’t mean there isn’t stuff going on. I guess people are always going to say stupid things and i guess this is just another battle we have to deal with.
So I guess I just wanted to thank everyone on shift for being here!
My new positive saying is”Unicorns and Rainbows”