The Good & The Bad
This is day 3 of a good day now again a twing but good. But this past week i will have a chunk of good days and then a really bad days for the rest of the week. So am unease on what going to happen this week. I have this week and next to rest and then back to work finally. But am scared because i don't want anyone to see in that state again friends and family. Do you get sick of the unpredictable-ness of it all? i just want to reduce the risks and at the moment i do reduce the risks but it isn't enough. I just want my predictable mess of a life back again. Stop people from worrying even my home town is watching and giving me that look...
I want more good days so i can show people that i am okay and that i am taking care of myself. They say my face is saying something and i told them i don't have a mirror to see what my face pulling haha I will admit i will get discomfort but its nothing compare to the big attacks that last a few days.
@sarah_graham , you need to try and learn moderation, so that your highs are not quite so high and your lows are not so low. MS is unpredictable, but we have to try and live with it, rather than battle against it. And, try not to concern yourself about what other people think. It doesn't matter what you do, people will always think what they like.
You are putting too much pressure on yourself. It sounds like you are surrounded by people that love you. We are all scared of the future but don't worry about what might never happen. Take one day at a time. Speak about treatment options with your MS nurse you at least have options now. Back in the day they had no treatment. Be kind it's horrible to try hiding how you feel. Speak and share your fears. Think of how you would feel if someone close to you was feeling how you are and sharing their fears.I wish i could click my fingers. lol x