@Amber91 

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Amber91

My week

I really don’t know how to even start this. And I’m even embarrassed to talk about it because I hate showing my emotions. But this past week has been so hard for me. My boyfriend of over a year left me after I told him I was diagnosed with MS. I really don’t know why he would do that, especially when I needed him the most. My family and friends has not talked to me since I’ve told them that I was diagnosed. I’ve been overwhelmed with stress because the next two week I have to do the VEP, spinal tap, EEG and blood work, along with my sons physical therapy that he goes to twice a week. And to add on to more stress I also have 2 midterms coming up the next two weeks. This is making it so hard for me to focus in school right now. I just feel so lonely and depressed. I feel like I’m going to have an emotional breakdown soon. This week has been so hard for me that I’ve lost over 10 pounds, which I really don’t know how. I’ve been eating and drinking plenty of water. I’ve been trying so hard to stay positive of everything, especially for my son. But I wish I had that one family member or friend to just give me a hug to give me some reassurance that I’m not alone doing this. I’m sorry sounding selfish and over dramatic. But its been an emotional week for me and I needed to vent.
@Mlgilber1

I’m so sorry you’re going through such a hard time. A lot of my family and especially my friends ditched me right after I was diagnosed as well. I’m not sure why people do that when you need them the most. You do not sound dramatic or selfish at all. You have every right to be upset. I hope things start looking up for you soon. Try not to stress, which I know is harder that it sounds, but stress is horrible for people with MS. Best of luck!

@sfrox

You don't sound selfish. It can be uncanny how things tend to pile up. I don't know why some people are faced with such burdens, but I think it is because we can handle them. I'm so sorry about your MS. It is NEVER a good time to have that laid on you. And the logistics of it are half the pain. It is very hard to be alone when you have such overwhelming things to face. Just remember, many people DO NOT understand what these things (MS) mean. If you're able to ask someone for help with transporting your son or accompanying you to your tests, I hope you will. It may take a while to get your health situation settled in terms of treatments and such. But since you have set up all of your near term appointments, now you just need to focus on your mid-terms and your son. The biggest thing I have learned since being diagnosed is to just clarify the priorities and focus on them, so my mind doesn't spin out. Lists are so helpful at times like this. I am sending you big hugs. You deserve a vacation, but fate wants you to get a few more things done before that! DEEP BREATHS