Hey people. I’m dealing with insomnia (and Depression) at the moment so I’m crazy introspective and alone with the internet for hours 😂 I have many thoughts on this topic so, be warned, that this is going to be a long one.
I’ve been essentially self-medicating my pain with weed for maybe 4 years. Initially it was just recreationally once or twice a year but I noticed that I could now apply strong pressure to the tight spots in my muscles that were normally too painful to even touch.
Getting regular deep tissue massage on the NHS was great but it was only the 10 sessions and I can’t afford to be having weekly massages (even though that’s what I really need), so now I had a way to do at least some of the job myself.
I bought a bong – like a 14 year old boy – because my lungs hate, hate, hate tobacco-, and would buy a small bag 2-3 times a year and just get it out when I started to get the really terrible pains. Doing this, I noticed some things and, being “science-minded”, I’ve been testing out my ideas:
1) When I’m high, my short-term memory just switched off – kaput. I’ve had to rewatch whole seasons of Netflix shows that I definitely watched but just don’t remember.
2) Partly related to the first one: I get really distracted by my own thoughts…
3)… and I suddenly have a lot -no – ALL of them at once. If I’m with people, I essentially go silent for hours because I’ve disappeared down an internal rabbit hole and am silently questioning the meaning of everything.
4) My capacity for empathy goes through the roof. Watching a film or show becomes an intense experience because I think I can understand the motivations of every single character, from the protagonist, to their mum, their teacher, the villain, the villain’s wife, etc. It makes everything seem intensely profound, which means…
5) comedies don’t make me actually laugh out loud if I’ve smoked. I get the giggles occasionally but it’s usually because of a thought or someone actually in the room with me.
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