Coming to grips

I was diagnosed with Ms in May of this year. I had three mini seizures that month. Just one month after my hysterectomy. I confused them for strokes. That run hard on my mom's side of the family amongst the women. By the second seizure I promised my sister next time I'll go straight to the hospital. In the emergency room they ruled out a stroke. They took me to get a Kat scan. After the Kat scan the emergency room doctor asked if there was a history of multiple sclerosis in my family. I answered no. On my mother's side strokes and my father's side perkinsons. He told me that they found lessions on both sides of my brain. So they took me to do a MRI. Once back in the emergency room. The doctor said; guess what this is good. We have a room for you. We must monitor your blood pressure and keep an eye on you in case you have another seizure. My family doctor came to my room later that day. He checked my blood pressure and recommend they find another pill instead of my present prescription. He explained Ms to me and told me not to panic. The next day before my release. Another doctor entered my room. She said I was to see my family doctor in one week. And that Friday my new neurologist. That Friday my neurologist did the standard testing on me. She bluntly told me about Ms and I had it. My sister started balling out of control. Her best friend had been diagnosed with it for about ten years now. She's in a wheelchair and completely blind. One week later my lumbar results came back. Which showed I had multiple sclerosis for real. Even though I take my meds and infusions regularly. My disability has come on quickly. A cane, diapers, blurred vision, double vision, vertigo, insomnia I can go on and on. Even though I sit alone sometimes feeling sorry for myself. Worrying about my family. Especially my youngest child. Whom is severely mentally cognitive and autistic. Thinking of the worst scenarios that come along with this treacherous disease. I keep reminding myself. I got Ms. Ms ain't got me. Having Ms is a part of my life. I'm not about to let this run my life. I got a family to feed. And can't nobody do it like Momma!