Going on disability pension
I was made redundant recently, I came to realise that it is not that easy to find work when you have a form of disability and if anything I don't have the confidence to walk into a job interview with a walking stick and to get the LOOK!
I just wanted to let it out because I don't talk to anybody about it because I just start to cry and they don't understand they think I'm lucky I don't have to work. I hate staying at home and if anything I just get lazier. mentally it is horrible.
I know it happens to a lot of people but I am just finding it hard.
I keep on thinking I didn't think I would get to this stage, I try ky best to keep positive and to not cry all the time. I feel like I'm too young to go on disbility pension. Life is changing soo much.
It's another milestone and the end of another chapter in your life. It is a bit like a bereavement and it is another thing, which will take time for you to accept. But, it is the start of another chapter for you. Once you get over the end of the last chapter, you'll start exploring the opportunities available in this next chapter. Don't rush yourself. You'll soon relate to some of the important factors in this change. When you feel that you want to work, which may be voluntary or paid, you'll be doing it on your terms. Your priorities will have changed. So take your time and then you can start to focus on the future. :)
A retired friend told me that when I stopped work, I would realise the stress load I'd been carrying. I didn't take much notice because I didn't feel I was particularly stressed. I enjoyed work. But, she was so right! It took about three months and then I started feeling different. Improved quality of sleep, taking time over things I used to rush, philosophy of 'one job a day', being able to calendar regular social things e.g. coffee with friends, joining a library. I also realised I'd stopped getting butterflies in the stomach, indigestion, broken fingernails, eczema etc. It really came home to me when I had some of my old colleagues over for a meal. I noticed a) how fast they all spoke (and ate) and b) how they only livened up when they were talking about work. There's no one prescription of how to live your life without the job: there's good and bad points about it. But @Stumbler is right: a new, different life IS there. And, I forget to say, my MS got a lot more manageable.