Blame
Does anyone else feel like it’s their own fault they got this disease. Ive struggled with depression and anxiety for a long long time.. during most of that time I was pretty sedentary, I had high anxiety and didn’t leave my house much and ate shittily. I feel like that really contributed to me gaining a lot of weight and just feeling overall way worse. I’m struggling with feeling like I’ll ever get “better” or not feel pain for at least a few minutes. “Move it or lose it” constantly comes into my mine and I feel terrible guilt. Days like today where it’s hard to walk really get me down and I get thinking negatively. I can also have very happy positive days, but I just feel like I’ll never be fully okay again and that kills me. Can anyone relate? 💕
I certainly did, I played college football but smoked blacks, system was like oh no
Oh My Dear 🤗 IT IS NOT (NO WAY) YOUR FAULT 😵 There are so many HEALTHY ? people who also (for whatever reason) are saddled with this - (DEPRESSING in itself) disease. Like it's been said - - The Lord works in Mysterious ways !!! I myself believe I'm to learn many a lesson in my 30 years of having MS NO 🙅🏼♀️ IT'S NOT EASY - ⛔️ I also have struggled with Depression and Anxiety since about 12 years old - I DID NOT realize 🙃 I was not well It was not talked about in our house which included my Mom & 2 sisters - NO dad I DID NOT know how badly my MoM was depressed 😔 NOT A SUBJECT TO DISCUSS 🗣👥️ 🗣 Her Mother was really bad - she attempted suicide but was found by her youngest son. My grandpa was born depressed 😔 and I'm pretty sure my MoM and her 4 siblings all suffered as well So what did we all do about this UNSPOKEN ILLNESS ?? ?? We either DRANK or did DRUGS of sorts. I'm pretty sure the WHOLE DAM WORLD suffers with mental illnesses 🤕 🥴 🤕 You talk about unhealthy eating and WEIGHT My BIGGEST OBSESSION I started starving myself around age 11 I had nicknames like CHUBS, PIG, FAT WENDY I was never called Wendy it was ""ALWAYS"" FAT WENDY - WHY ? 🤷🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️ Finally at age 23 - When I put myself in rehab for my Alcoholism - my weight plummeted really fast !! And I was HELL BENT ON STAYING UNDERWEIGHT Then my mom and sisters FINALLY REALIZED there was alot more wrong with me besides being a DRUNK (self admitted)!! They stopped immediately calling me FAT WENDY - Too late - The damage was done !¡! You would think 🤔 that after I had my SON at age 29 with a immediate diagnosis (5 weeks later) Of Multiple Sclerosis - I would take much better care of myself - NOPE I got worse 🙃 At age 35 I landed in hospital in the Eating Disorder unit for ANOREXIA & BULIMIA So if my MS was to get worse ... ... ... THAT WOULD BE MY FAULT - Right ✅️ ? I abused diet pills 💊 & anything that would kill my appetite all in the name of **I HAVE TO BE SKINNY** Talk about playing with FIRE 🔥 😳 That was me No one else to blame for my failing health & MS I still take prescribed meds that are not good for my appetite & weight stuff but they SURE HELP WITH THE FATIQUE - DAILY I have been on these highly addictive STIMULANTS for 8 years now with the attitude - I'm hooked on these and I ain't gonna STOP taking these !! !! Because they do give me a WEE BIT MORE of my Quality of Life I'll never be myself or fully OK EVER AGAIN And that's really tough to live with So can I relate ? 💕 I'm sure there are others too. Please keep in touch - I'd like to how YOU are doing and if I can HELP you in anyway 😇 TaTa For Now Wendy 🌷