wrote this during my 1st attack, geesh, can u tell I was feeling depressed? Lol The sun's light washes over the walls I haven't felt it's warmth in so long Still holding on but too far gone I'm alive but I'm not LIVING In this world so cold, so unforgiving Time fast forwards to another day But this cold grey place is where I must stay I can feel myself falling apart I remember fondly when I had a beating heart Now I see myself, but I don't recognize Not a glimmer left in my lonely eyes If I must disappear, then just let it be done! As the world continues on, and on... I'm living but I'm not ALIVE A disease sucks away at the life I tried I feel as though I'm dying before my time