Sick of my Life
I am getting worse everyday feeling tired always but despite
this I have to get up and go to work. I am alone no family no a close person who can support me and make my days easier.
I am always in a horrible mood cry on my own from nowhere and I dont know if is because of the MS or because of the frustration, frustration made from the NHS which is not doing anything to help but doing very well to make me worse everyday driving me to lose my mental health. I am very close to go insane and mad . They told me need to wait still 8 weeks to see a MS specialist to get a treatment. I am devastated cant carry on my life like this evert day is hard and frustrating. I get anger most of the days all day and when my lovely mom speaks on the phone to me to try to stay close I always scream and shout this is not me but it's me now.
I have to lie to her now saying I am well when I am not because she is heartbroken
Hi @MSWa . MS can definitely be a very lonely and isolating condition and I can really understand what you say about the horrible mood and just spontaneously crying! Have you looked at the buddy scheme available through Shift.MS? I found it seriously helpful as it gave me access to someone else who has MS and can properly understand what you have to go through on a daily basis. I remember one of my first sessions where I just kept crying because it was all this pent up emotion and frustration just flooding out of me. Finally someone understood what I was talking about and I didn't have to put a brave face on it like you do with your Mum.
Hi, so sorry you are feeling like this, i know how frustrating it is, i’m newly diagnosed (diagnosed in august), was diagnosed via private health care and im still awaiting a NHS appointment which isn’t until december, its very frustrating but your not alone. Ive found this site very helpful, try and find some time in the day to do something that relaxes you, whatever that may be, i find taking a walk is helpful (i used to hate going on walks!) it really helps to clear your mind, everyone is different so whatever you can find that helps you. Remember its ok to feel like you do, its a massive change and hard to adjust to. If you want a chat feel free to pm me. You’ve got this and will be ok!