How to manage my rage
Not something I am proud of but the last few weeks I have had moments of uncontrollable rage/anger/ irritability. I have lost my temper at work on a few occasions; once in NEXT and also been abrupt with my OH - this isn't like me. I used to have a very long fuse.
I am finding things tough at work with my cognitive ability. We have just changed over to office 365, got a new IT program management system and the requirements of our huge project change like the weather. I find it very hard to do tasks as quick as I used to plus every day I am having to relearn things that should be ingrained once I have been shown.
I am thinking that this is where I need to find a less complex/challenging job and quit any aspirations in my career? I have told my manager but we don't seem to have a solution between us except my suggestion to throw the IT out a 10 storey building.
Any once else had similar?
STOPP technique check out myselfhelf website and get a referral from ms nurse/GP for talking therapy. Mindfulness, yoga, diet, exercise it all helps but I won’t lie some days the irritability is part of the condition especially if ur fatigued. Just don’t have the time/energy to deal with fools when ur feeling exhausted & vulnerable even if ppl are not actually being fools 😳🙄🤦🏻♀️Ur not doing it on purpose & it can be hard to control but all the above helps plus I’m gonna be honest meds will help u regulate as well. but this thing called Ms will take time to process & it’s sounds like ur have some similar issues to me so I know ur doing it tough try & roll with the punches as best u can WE WILL GET THERE it might not be the route we envisioned but we will bloody get there (promise)
Exercise and meditation and mindfulness are all part of my daily routine even before my diagnosis so I will look into STOPP. I do actually think I probably have a lesion on the part of my brain that regulates mood but won't know for sure until my next MRI. Won't change the fact that I am becoming shit at my job though You are right about the fatigue. After a pretty hard day yesterday I had to have a day off sick today the fatigue had been building up from /Sunday so I guess there is a link there to the anger