So I guess we've all heard of 'the five stages of grief' or the seven stages or the 7000 stages as it can feel like when you're going through them. 1.Denial – Its not MS, its some sort of bug thats been going around or whatever your particular brand of 'imagination' your brain can come up with to convince you that that tingling in your foot can't be MS, I just fell asleep on it right? 2.Anger – Hulk go SMASH! Well, not quite, but you might find yourself a bit more iritable or snappy with those that are close to you. 3.Bargaining – I'll give you my bike if it aint MS, no? How about my bike (its got like seven gears) and a pie? Alright, you can have my wife, no please, take her, I'll keep my MS 4.Depression – Life is so shit right now, there really is no point in me even being here, who is going to miss me if I'm dead anyway? She never even loved me anyway, I mean what exactly is love anyway? 5.Acceptance – It'll be alright, it could be worse, at least I've got a fantastic group of friends and I'm not about to die. Things could get better, hell they could even cure it one day. Now at the moment, I'm revisiting number 2 a bit, I'm just getting a bit ratty with my wife, frustrated at myself, more so when my fatigue is beating me down a bit 'I should be able to get up this slope, stupid body' etc etc. And that's just the thing, the stages of grief are never the same for everyone, they can come in different orders, for different amounts of time. For me personally it was a bit of 1 mixed with 3 during diagnosis before swiftly jumping to 5 before I was even diagnosed. I thought wow, I rock, silly grief, I'm not depressed, who the fuck is angry? And times were good, for a while, and then 4 started showing up a touch, just in the background for a few years mind until it started getting a bit more serious, and thats when mr. Prozac turned up to quieten him down and I've noticed recently that 2 has started to show up again, 5 is normally there most of the time though :-) I hope this post has helped someone out there on this 'tinternet thing, I'll probably do a vlog on this next week.